So. I have a problem. Or rather, have almost always had a problem with this. I don’t do well with free time. Mostly because I don’t know what to do with it. With free time comes a chance for my mind to dwell inward, and that never seems to be a healthy direction. Because that… Continue reading Obsession
I absolutely hate waiting. Maybe it’s due to the fear of the unknown, or the inability to plan until you get an answer, but waiting seems to have been a main source of stress as of late. This can be in relation to big life events. For example, when I was waiting to hear from… Continue reading Anticipation
Expectations have seemed to become a leading factor in my mental health, as well as in my relationships. Perhaps it’s because I’m already in such a vulnerable state, but even the slightest disappointment can break the fragile balance between joy and gut-renching anxiety. Example #1 I go out with my friends expecting a) to have a good time… Continue reading Expectations
Do you ever get a thought that pops up into your mind and even though you acknowledge it as being completely irrational and unsound, it takes over your consciousness and suddenly all you can think about is this thought? I guess it’s similar to the whole “elephant in the room” idea, or the game (you just… Continue reading Thought Weeds
So I’ve got a face mask on. One of those charcoal ones that shrivels up while it dries, tightening up around your skin so every time you open your mouth to eat *insert sugary substance here*, the skin around your eyeballs tugs down and the corners of your mouth rip and tear and you’re left wondering why… Continue reading Face Mask and Feels
Will this blog help me in accomplishing these goals? Will it spare the ears/patience of my good friends from having to listen to my constant babbling? Maybe. Will it bring answers to all the questions constantly plaguing my every thought? Most likely not. But it just might help me come to my own understanding of the insanity that makes up the sanity of my mind.